Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Busy, busy, busy

I don't know that I've ever been so busy in my life. It seems that free time is something that I have to make now rather than I have by default. These past two months have been something else. I've seen 2 of my closest friends get married, been in both their weddings, planned both of their bach. parties, changed jobs/careers, dealt with med. ins. company frustrations, dental stuff, working on my truck stuff, looking for a new truck stuff, VLI stuff, lots of hours at work stuff, planning a leadership event, going to a leadership conference, home group, Kid's church stuff, and lots of other stuff.

The above is not a life, but a tornado going round and round whipping me in every direction trying to pull me apart. Trying to maintain some semblance of a life and making time for friends, family and the building of relationships while accomplishing all the other things is impossible. Much of the stuff has come and gone, but more is always there to replace it. I am so ready for Shalom to be over my life. My knees and feet are hurting, head splitting, painful bowel movements, still with epilepsy, dropping pills like any 23 yr. old guy would. This is normal right? To be dependant on drugs to keep me "normal".

I'm ready to be done with it all, and people wonder why no matter how I die, I will die happy, and why I say the sooner the better. Sometimes I feel like Job, wallowing in self pity, woe is me, life sucks, but then I take a step back and pull off the negative lensed shades that sometimes cover my eyes. I look around at what God has done for me. What He is doing in me now, and what He has told me He is going to do and where He is taking me. I learn the lesson of perspective from Job that even though some areas of life seem rather troublesome and painful, God has His mighty hands in those areas, and like it or not He will use them for His glory. Whether it's to demonstrate His awesome power as I'm healed, or to demonstrate His incredible grace as He gives me everything I need to face life and the situations/problems that are in front of me or that I'm currently in. When all is said and done I can say one thing and one thing alone. Though He gives and takes away, my heart will choose to say blessed be the name of the Lord.

I look forward to what you have for me, and the adventure that lies ahead. Please heal my body, and give me Shalom over my entire life.

6 comments:

d said...

I just wanted to tell you that you're amazing!

David Killough said...

Thanks Dina! I appreciate that, and would say that your encouragement to myself and others is something amazing in and of itself.

Andre said...

Love you David.
I am praying that you would continue the course, just like job did until God restored him. You can do it man.

Luke said...

Lord bring my bro peace and strength to finish out the tasks at hand, and give him more hope and a glimpse of what you have planned for his real future working in your kingdom. Continue to mold him to where you need him to be. Love you bro! Hopefully I'll see you again in a couple months. If not you'll have to take a KS vacation.

David Killough said...

Looks like I'm going to have to take a KS vacation sometime eh?

pdog said...

i am thinking of you bro... I look forward to see you, blessings, pat